defriending you

Defriend Me
thats what u do
my heart breaks into a million pieces
shattered
my trust
took so long to build
now u walk out the door quickly saying goodbye

Is that all I'm worth
I wonder as the feelings of rejection swarm my mind

I try and say to myself you just couldn't cope
Im in the too hard basket
a diagnosis an illness u would never understand

for 3 years you had been my friend
and now its all over
blocked and restricted from talking to you


I hope your happy
I hope you find your peace
obviously having depression is too much

severe depression is knocking me around
just thought u would understand

but the judgements come quickly and fast
Im blamed for being negative for not learning for not improving
when i have proved I have changed.

Ive been knocked back
but your fearing me suiciding.
your afraid of losing a friend

I cant give u the answers you want
I cant tell you I'm going to be ok
because the truth is i am meddling my way through life and I'm not sure how it will turn out